Thursday, January 5, 2012

nineteen

expect things of yourself.
the start of a year is a funny thing. a chance to begin again. refresh. renew. but I often wonder why I do not start again, when necessary, in February. or July. or insert minute-hour-day-month here.

I expect things of myself in this new year. to build on me. to be bold. daring. darling. courageous. courteous. gentle. determined. honest. and I think the last is the most important. be true to me and my family and friends and strangers. take a good hard look and listen at myself. I cannot fix me. I am what I am. but I can certainly take on those thoughts and hints and opinions and criticisms.

constructively.

there is a word. strong. sub-definable.

this is a challenging task for me. I am an emotional gal. and I take things to heart. and that very vulnerable part of me beats. cracks. breaks. bruises. easily. but I believe in myself. although there are days when I have to fight for the conviction to be imperfectly me.

I am a good person. I know I can be a better person. wife. mother. friend. girl behind you in the check-out line. and when combined with a strength from the power in others. a more positively me.

so that is what I can do. should do. will do. with a deep and baited breath. try. try again.

peace.

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