Thursday, February 9, 2012

twenty four

sit down with trouble - as if it were knitting.
for the past few weeks. months. I have been struggling. emotionally. even though all the elements are there for contentment. so many things don’t feel right. I am searching. seeking. not for happiness – it is there for the asking. and given freely. but for who I am.

I feel silly really. I am too old for this. but the more I read. listen. I learn that there is a conflict in us all. not for happiness necessarily, but for a few instructions.

there is love all around but I am feeling unwoven. unwhole.

do I need to find myself? or do I need to simply understand. I am not coping very well right now. I feel like a tattered bundle. ragged. knotted.

I am lost. I turn to Him for answers. grace. I find great comfort there and know that He guides me. he does not give me answers but strength. love. family. friends.

I trust. I hope. I am safe.

peace.

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